It was a perfect day and the two hour breezy car drive back from the prom group lake house was the perfect time to reflect. Prom, next to graduation of course, was the finale of my high school career. So as we drove back, I wondered what my freshman self would say about my senior self. Throughout high school I have experienced so much; I have made many friends and mistakes, but simultaneously lost parts of who I am and people that were a part of my life. Basically everything changed, from what I wore, to what I was interested in, to who I disliked, to my outlook on life in general.
My freshman self was a closed minded, scared girl, one who was afraid to meet new people and try new things. She might be astounded by the risks I have taken or the diverse people I am friends with. As I looked back on little Sammy, I realized that my old self was a completely different person. If I could pinpoint the feeling it would be disconnected or shaken, almost an out of body experience.
If I could talk to my freshman self, I would give her this advice: The problem with change is that it is inevitable. Everyone must experience it throughout their life and it never stops no matter what we do. It is what connects us as human beings.
Even from the beginning of high school I was afraid of change. I was thrown into a new environment with people I hardly knew. All of my friends from middle school went to a different high school and I felt alone from the start. It took me so long to realize that I would have to accept the new experience. I have no regrets of my decisions throughout high school, I am just happy with the way I have turned out and all of the important life lessons I have learned. I have not completely changed as a person, I have simply molded and shifted shapes into a more intellectual and emotionally secure person.
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